Reactive Abuse: What it is and Why You’re Not “Crazy”
Are you the abusive one, or are you defending yourself with reactive abuse? This is a question so many women caught up in the complex dynamics of an abusive relationship ask themselves.
The concept of reactive abuse is often misunderstood. When you’ve been conditioned to believe that you are the one at fault—that you are to blame for the conflicts in your relationship—it’s normal to second guess yourself.
This blog aims to shed light on what reactive abuse truly is, normalising those moments when you feel “crazy” (because you’re not). You don’t deserve to feel shame and self punishment for being reactive to painful treatment by others.
This blog explores the broader psychological effects of being in an abusive relationship, and also provides options for your next steps in healing.
What is Reactive Abuse?
Reactive abuse occurs when the victim of prolonged emotional, verbal, or physical abuse reacts in a way that seems aggressive or uncharacteristic. This reaction can be shouting, crying, or even lashing out.
Women who have experienced reactive abuse often explain that before they realised what was actually happening to them, they just felt like they were “losing control” or “acting crazy”. They feel like they’ve lost themselves in the relationship—but also like they’re powerless to change it.
It is crucial to understand that these reactions are not a sign of inherent abusiveness on your part but rather a response to being pushed to your emotional limits. The constant tension and fear in an abusive relationship create an environment where reacting strongly becomes a coping mechanism.
What can be incredibly confusing to both yourself and others on the outside is that people with abusive behaviour can act very calm, and the person being abused can be the person who is being stepped on so many times that eventually you crack.
It’s like the kid who pulls the puppies tail over and over again. A puppy, although innocent, is going to have emotions in defence.
Why You’re Not “Crazy”
“After years of being screamed at, I lost it. And I screamed back. It just came out of me… but I felt so much shame after. My husband said ‘Do you see it now? Do you see what you’re doing? You’re crazy!’
By that point I was too exhausted to argue with him anymore.”
If you can relate to this experience, you’re not alone. Feeling “crazy” (or like you’re solely responsible for his behaviour and the problems in your relationship) is a common experience for women who have been through reactive abuse.
This feeling is often a result of:
- Gaslighting: Abusers use gaslighting to make you doubt your reality. They may tell you that your memories are incorrect, that you’re overreacting, or that you’re imagining things, which can lead to confusion and self-doubt.
- Manipulation: Abusers are skilled at shifting blame, making you feel responsible for their actions and your reactions. In their reality, they might even believe that you truly are to blame—but that doesn’t make it true—or make their behaviour acceptable.
- Emotional exhaustion: Have you been yelled at, called names, or had your property damaged by your partner? The rollercoaster of emotions you experience in this relationship dynamic wears down your mental and emotional resilience, making it harder to think clearly and trust your judgment.
- Dismissal: Your feelings and boundaries are ignored or minimised. When you express hurt, he calls you “dramatic” or “crazy,” or shifts the focus to how he was hurt, making you doubt your own emotions.
Gaslighting, manipulation, yelling, and name calling are all considered abuse.
Abusive partners may use your vulnerable moments—like reactive abuse—to flip the narrative, portraying themselves as the victim and you as the aggressor.
Remember that you’re not the one who’s at fault.
What you’re going through is a reaction to prolonged mistreatment.
You do not deserve to be treated this way, and there is hope for healing.
The Psychological Effects of Abuse
Being in an abusive relationship doesn’t only result in reactive abuse; it can also lead to a range of psychological issues. Let’s discuss what those are and normalise what enduring mistreatment can look like:
- Anxiety: Do you find yourself constantly on edge, especially around your partner? The unpredictable nature of abuse creates a constant state of fear and hyper-vigilance. You may find yourself anxious about your partner’s reactions or possible future outbursts.
- Depression: The erosion of self-esteem, isolation, and persistent emotional harm can lead to feelings of hopelessness and depression. You may feel like you’re not capable of doing things without him, but remember that this is often what the abusive man wants you to believe so he can maintain control.
- Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD): Women who have experienced prolonged abuse may develop PTSD symptoms. This includes flashbacks, nightmares, severe anxiety, and hypervigilance.
- Self-doubt and confusion: Do you find yourself doubting your thoughts and judgements? Constant manipulation and blame-shifting can lead to a diminished sense of self-worth and a foggy sense of reality.
Your reactions to being abused are completely normal.
“But he never laid a hand on me.”
“It wasn’t that bad—I mean, it could have been worse.”
“He has an anger problem, but he’s never physically hurt me.”
The impact of psychological abuse cannot be understated. Studies have shown that emotional abuse is just as harmful as physical abuse.
His words and actions may not leave marks, but that doesn’t mean it didn’t take a significant toll on you—and have long lasting effects on your self-esteem and self-image.
It’s important to recognize that your reaction to his behavior is a normal response to abnormal and toxic situations. The intense emotions you feel are a natural result of being subjected to continuous harm and manipulation.
Understanding reactive abuse helps to reframe these moments, allowing you to see them not as a reflection of your character but as a byproduct of the abuse you’ve endured.
Seeking Support and Healing
If you find yourself questioning your reality or feeling “crazy,” it could be your sign that it’s time to seek support.
The power dynamics in a relationship should never be one-sided. Healthy relationships are about mutual respect, communication, trust, and support. You should never have to worry about your psychological safety with the person you love.
Talking to a trusted friend, family member, or professional can provide clarity and validation. You can also consider joining our private community of women. These women have been in their own unhealthy relationships, and while each woman has their own unique story they can also relate to some of what you’ve been through.
Remember, healing from an abusive relationship takes time and patience. By understanding the dynamics of reactive abuse, you can begin to rebuild your sense of self. You deserve to feel peace again.
You’re Not Crazy or Wrong—And You’re Not Alone.
Reactive abuse is a complex and often misunderstood aspect of abusive relationships. Recognizing that your reactions are a natural response to prolonged mistreatment can help you regain a sense of control and self-compassion.
If you’re navigating the chaos of an abusive relationship, remember that you are not alone. Seeking support and understanding is the first step toward healing and reclaiming your life.
I’m here to listen to your story and hold space for you while you decide what’s next.
